Yes. I feel tired, since I haven’t made anything different from studying since two weeks ago. I feel disgusting and ugly, since that’s what I am and since I havent had time for myself for a while. I feel stupid because I can’t understand Chemistry. I feel vulnerable because I’m on my period and everything is hormones flying around me. I feel sick, but I don’t know why, and everytime I vomit my mother hints at I’m anorexic, which hurts a lot because that’s what I’ve been struggling against since I was a child.I feel confused because I have doubts about my future again. I’m frustrated because I can’t stand the society I live in and it makes me feel fed up most of the time. and I still feel I’m a bad person. I feel unconfident because exams aren’t going as well as I wanted. And if this wasn’t enough, now I feel extremely disappointed and swindled and I don’t even feel like going to the concert because someone is denying me something I’ve paid for.
Everything is so nasty right now I even wonder if life’s worth all this suffering.
