Destructive situations: Archive

I try and try to forget about it and keep on with...

… I can’t help thinking about how I have been rejected by using a Philosophy quote and by saying I should be happy no matter what. GO - FUCK- YOURSELF.

Oct 28th

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

there’s nothing in my life going right at the moment and I don’t know how long I’ll be able to handle it.

Oct 9th

Why life is so fucking unfair with people who don’t deserve it? I don’t want to live in this planet anymore. It’s disgusting.

Sep 26th

Sep 18th

Aug 24th

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So, things I'm missing 'cause I'm not 18 yet:

- Getting my car license this summer - Getting to vote for next Spanish elections - Probably Owl City’s concert in Madrid - Not getting to travel to the beach with my best friends - Not getting to au-pair in Germany this summer FUCK YOU DECEMBER FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FOREVER i actually feel like dying rn

Jul 29th

I am officialy a potential Biomedic Engineer

I had been looking forward so fucking much to this day… not because I’ll fulfil my hipotetic dream of being a biomedic engineer, which would be a lie. Simply, this is the day I actually know what I’m doing with my life, what will happen next, and I’m pretty satisfied with it. It’s been two years struggling with doubts and insecurities and feeling constantly...

Jul 19th

Jul 7th

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Jun 30th

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that awkward moment when you talk to your crush...

…to convice him to do the same dregree than you. I’M A CREEPER, BITCHES!

Jun 22nd

So much has changed

Last Friday my sister told me se had realized how quite much I have madurated this year. And she repeated it to me last Saturday. And now I’m realizing it’s true. And not only that. I’ve changed so much that it kind of scares me. And if that wasn’t enough, as soon as this summer comes to an end, my life as I’ve lived it until now will change completely too. ...

Jun 13th

Life apreciation post

I was going to write about a lot of things. I was going to write a long essay about how I’ve always considered humour as the most important thing in life, and the only thing I think I couldn’t actually live without. I was going to say how beautifully Luis Piedrahita creates it, uses it, and even mixes it with magic. I was going to say how much he has made me smile since his very first...

Jun 11th

May 14th

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Hello, I feel like a shit

Yes. I feel tired, since I haven’t made anything different from studying since two weeks ago. I feel disgusting and ugly, since that’s what I am and since I havent had time for myself for a while. I feel stupid because I can’t understand Chemistry. I feel vulnerable because I’m on my period and everything is hormones flying around me. I feel sick, but I don’t know...

May 1st

I am bad-mannered, shallow, hypocrital, and vain. I don’t care about the rest, just me, me, me, me. I am selfish and arrogant. I don’t have, and probably won’t ever have any empathy. I’m one of the worst people I know. I’m the most despicable human being right now. Always saying “What is essential is invisible to the eye”. Always lying.

Apr 22nd

sometimes I think I love mcfly too much

But I don’t know. It’s already almost 3 years listening to them, and almost 1 year being my favourite band, and they never fail to make me smile. I can have the shittiest they ever, but their last video on the supercity, or one of their songs, or the simply memory of when I met them will cheer me up. They are talented and down to earth, they’re kind and close to their...

Apr 6th

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Mar 26th

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Now I’m sure. I’m not gonna make it. I’m not good enough. Not a big deal, but this fact is going to make me feel absolutely useless. Harsh, harsh, harsh. I’ll be changing everyday of opinion and I won’t never be able to decide anything. Everything is quite ugly. (… that awkward moment when you cry watching the last episode of Hannah Montana….)

Mar 25th

Mar 5th

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Hi. I feel like dying, I feel like shit but I’ve spent the whole evening on my own watching lame TV programmes and sneezing and blowing my nose and feeling like puking. I don’t even know if I have fever because I don’t know where the fuck is the thermometer, I don’t have strenght enough to look for it at the moment and my mother hasn’t checked my temperature in all...

Feb 21st

pressure

I don’t work efficiently when I have pressure and everyone around me knows it. But the fact is that there are two scholarships and three possible winners and I’m in the bottom limit, so the only thing I can do this term is to improve. If I get worse, I lose. All the pressure I’ve got right now is my own pressure. My family has said me that I shouldn’t really worry about...

Feb 15th

Watch

The Ballad of Mona Lisa - Panic! at the Disco Wow, I quite like it.

Feb 8th

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-katiekins: martin-johnson: Miley Cyrus:...

Jan 30th

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Jan 30th

Jan 29th

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Jan 24th

Jan 19th

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Me, myself and time

I’m having a little crisis. I’m getting very very weighed down by my life right now. It’s not only the current exams, the current effort to do it well this term, which is actually pretty hard in itself. It’s the future, the pressure it makes on me, the urgent need of take decissions while all I want to do is to hide under my duvet all my life long. The thing is I have...

Jan 16th

Jan 8th

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Well, today’s the end of the world, the sky’s falling down year, and I would really like to do a summary of 2010 because since June it has been quite a good year, but right now I couldn’t been objective since I’ve had a shitty day, so I hope it gets better and maybe tomorrow I’ll do it. Meanwhile, let’s see the resolutions: Resolutions for 2010: - Get the...

Dec 31st

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Dec 30th

149 notes

Today I’ve realized again I’ve got a real problem. A real problem that won’t me let enjoy a lot of things. I wish I wasn’t so fucking harsh with myself. I wish I loved myself a little more. Yey, merry christmas to you too, dear body. These days were better than expected and obviously better than last year’s christmas, so yeah, I’m happy.

Dec 25th

Dec 23rd

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This is being a particullary hard weekend. I’m always trying to avoid being in the same room with my father because it’s uncomfortable and it usually makes me feel bad. And probably since we stopped talking, we hadn’t been together for so long as yesterday. He was in front of me talking to my grandfather, and indirectly talking about me. And I know he was provoking me, but he...

Dec 19th

mcflys: Danny’s laugh! I made this from their...

Dec 19th

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Dec 9th

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Dec 4th

I'm already 17 but I'm still stupid

I’m stupid, stupid, stupid. I’m very immature. I still imagine I live in a Taylor Swift song. I let myself go too high I break all my bones when I fall back to the ground. I’m a dreamer, but always when I shouldn’t. ALTHOUGH ALL THIS, I’ve got the BEST FRIENDS EVER. I mean, if anybody made a list with the best things a person can have, my friends have all of them. I...

Dec 2nd

Nov 30th

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Nov 28th

i'm having a breakdown

everything that raises has to faaaaaaaaaall. and i’m falling right now. so I’m going to watch El Hormiguero again and cry like a baby :D and then I’ll go to bed and sleep ‘til next April when my life get some sense again.

Nov 26th

When dreams come true

Yesterday I saw Party Girl, Shine a light and Falling in love (in which I got totally emotional, I confess) in acoustic live. I met McFly. I talked to them. I smiled to them. They smiled to me. I smelled them. Dougie asked me how I was. And the answer is that I was almost lobotomyzed. I taught Spanish to Danny. I felt dizzy. I WANTED TO HAVE SEX WITH ALL OF THEM. I accidentaly threw my Above the...

Nov 25th

Jesse Eisenberg, I used to like you....

THEN YOU DISSED EL HORMIGUERO. AND IF IT WASN’T ENOUGH, YOU SHOWED US YOUR FUCKING AMERICAN AND GREAT CULTURE, ASSURING USA HELPED SPAIN IN THE WW II. WHAT-THE-FUCK. I hope you get burnt in hell, Mr. Ego ;)

Nov 23rd

Harry Potter and the deathly hallows pt. 1

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. JULYYYYY, JULYYYYY. BEA I LOVE YOU. AND NEXT WEDNESDAY OMGGGGG LIFE’S BEING SO GOOD :’) Do you know when you’re so happy you seem to be drunk? I am.

Nov 19th

I'M ABOUT TO THROW UP OF EXCITENESS

BECAUSE I’M PROBABLY SEEING MCFLY LIVE EXACTLY IN A WEEK. AND THEY WILL SIGN MY CD BECAUSE I’M A FUCKING PIONEER AND I EVEN THINKING OF MISSING SCHOOL BECAUSE IT’S AT 16:30 AND HISTORY ISN’T A IMPORTANT CLASS, ISN’T ITTTTTTTT MCFLY IS MORE MORE MORE IMPORTAAAAAANTTTTTT I’M NERVOUSSSSS AS FUCK CAN’T YOU SEE HEHEHEHEHEHE Harry Potter and the deathly...

Nov 18th

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Sick of waiting, I can't take it, gotta call you

I CAN’T TAKE ANOTHER NIGHT ON MY OWN, so I’ll take a break and then I pick up the phone… But no, everybody knows I won’t do it. Because I’m coward as fuck.

Nov 12th

Nov 11th

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Nov 11th

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'Cause obviously, he's out of my league.

I’m wasting my time because he’ll never be mine and I know I never will be good enough for him, oh no. But so many nights now I found myself thinkin about him now. And how can I win? He keeps draggin’ me in… Taking all the cheesy impossible-love songs and changing “she” for “he”. That’s my best entertaiment in my first free evening after...

Nov 11th